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What it feels like.

Is this what it feels like
Nothing but regrets
No more and no less
And you lose your soul

I've lost what it feels like
Is it warm or is it cold
Feeling young, feeling old
Head down, miss the goal

When will I feel like
The fog in this heart
So bright and so dark
Doesn't cover the light

I hope for what it feels like
Correction back to one
Dead stop into a run
Daytime in the night

Take it

So this is where it stands
That's fine, I can take it
Turn your back, shut the door
That's fine, I can take it

Hey, wait, you forgot something
I found this, you should take it
It's this secret part of you
I found this, you should take it

You're right, I don't understand
There are different ways to take it
But I really don't think like you do
There are different ways to take it

What happened since we last spoke
I want to know what your take is
Is this what you really think
I want to know what your take is

You say this is life as usual
But that's a risk to take ain't it
You're already subject to change
But that's a risk to take ain't it

Don't speak, just leave it at that
You don't know the risks I took
But you've trusted the right person
You don't know the risks I'll take

If this is it, if this is it
If you won't risk to take it
If you can't handle it, can't have it
I don't think I can take it

Hey, wait, you forgot something
I found this, you should take it
It's this secret part of you
I found this, you should take it.

The Weight of the World

I broke down crying just now. I don't know why... Maybe the song I'm playing struck something, or the picture on my desktop, or what I've done, or something I thought. I cried for the second time since my parents left, since my friends left, since everyone left, since I left. For the first time, it just happened. No warning, no selfish reason, I started bawling, drooling, twisting, gasping.

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

Tears of sadness
Roll down my cheek
Bass pounds in my ears
Beginning of the week

Tears of fear
Fall to the floor
Soft guitar in empty space
No one around, closed door

Tears uncontrolled
Dots on my shirt
Explosions of water
Lost to parched dirt

Tears of shame
Burden of mass
The weight of the world
Doesn't simply pass

Tears of sorrow
Holding through the bridge
Overwhelming unworthiness
Enough to make me cringe

Tears of love
How can it be
That I could ever
Be so far from Thee

Tears of awe
How can it be
That you would bother
To care for me

Tears of helplessness
Where can I go
That I'm not fallen
A pathetic vertigo

Tears of joy
Coming with the lift
An unknown acquaintance
A most precious gift

Tears of resolve
It's my prayer
My efforts without You
Doomed to failure

Tears of grace
I don't deserve any
Pick me up Lord,
I'm scared oh God help me

Tears, wiped clear
Tempo subsides
Go on living
Hope picks sides.

May she be for me, may I of her be worthy,
may Your will be done, by my will undone.
Forgive me my debts, lest I fall to regrets,
the day is tomorrow anew, let it be to worship You.

So cool.

Magic Flashlights from Mike Benson on Vimeo.

Behold the power of Adobe After Effects. I'm starting to try my hand at it, and the potential is limitless. Hopefully I can make something this cool down the road.

Wallie

Pat wallie, originally uploaded by Grady Brannan.

Thanks to Grady Brannan for making me feel like I can actually skate.

Nature-Explosion

Nature-Explosion, originally uploaded by pattyvonwebster.

Hey guys, It's been forever. I've been happily working at the Seymour Center all summer, hanging with the MS peeps, surfing, skating, lazing... Summer is almost over, and with that, time to procrastinate and avoid homework with blog entries.

I'll see you guys around. Until then, enjoy my photoshop of Ms. Blue.

This is why Barack Obama should be president.