Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Jag älskar dig Sebbe!

Dude, i wish you the best of luck in france man. you will be missed. you are one of the coolest people i have ever met, and i've met quite a few! you will be loved in france aswell, but remember, you belong to us!! anyways, peace out man. you will always have a friend in me! Patty hore and hore boy forever!

i love you man!

Good times, good times...

Thursday, May 26, 2005

im so over it.

ok, so my first board was worthless piece of poo, and now what? i fall on an ollie, the board rams itself into a wall, and presto! chipped board! it isn't as bad as the first board, but its just so upsetting. good thing im getting another in the US. still, this blows, big time.

im soooo angry right now.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Morals to the Aid of Society 1:Judging Patty

My new label: judge.

Pejorative? Highly. Uplifting? Hardly. Nonetheless true and exact? Very.

This is probably the most difficult thing for me to come across well at. I mean, when i speak religion, everyone knows that im full of it and doen't care, but when i start impeding on others territory, i come across as a judge. Like Douglas in my class asked, more or less rightfully: who made you judge over everyone else's actions?

i guess the answer is that it is self appointed, though some would also add that it has to do with being a Christian: i need to screw peoples lives up, for the better usually. But you come across as a judge.

But i would hardly rate myself as a judge, rather, a friend. Friends tell friends when they disagree with what a friend is doing, in all honesty, because you don't want the friend to screw himself up or injure himself, or you plain disagree with his choices. You tell him what you think is wrong, and keep at it because you care about that persons well being. Or you tell him/her what is wrong with their attitude, because coming from a friend, you realize this is not some BS, but true stuff that you should consider.

Take my friend Erik. He tells me when i go too far. He tells me if i should just drop something when i can't stop. And although i may not like it, i trust him and i feel that if he says something to me about something, there is some truth to it, and that i may be in the wrong.

So here, we are talking about a friend i care about, and another person im not close to in any respect, but that share the same problem. Weed and excessive drinking. Now, Eriks advice on this is to mind my own, and not care so much. I agree that i care too much about others, if i think that they are doing something wrong. But, it has been labeled, falsely by say Douglas, that im judging.

Here in Sweden, and in a lot of the western world, the main goal of the young person and the person in general, is personal, self centered physical pleasure. Prove me wrong, please, i want to be. But, the casual sex, alcohol and drugs, the disregard for human dignity in behavior towards the opposite sex, contributing to this orgy of immoral activities, points otherwise. The whole goal is to engage in activities with absolute shallowness to have fun. The less meaningful something was, the better. If you care only about yourself, you are doing great.

Well, i don't think that way. I care about my friends, and i don't want them to ruin their lives, which they will, and i want them to GROW UP. There is more to life than physical pleasure and your own ego centric world. I care about more people than myself. Its called selflessness. You care about yourself, but you put others before you. That is what the Bible teaches, and i enjoy to serve others, and help them. So, when i say something, i want the person to see that im not judging them, but looking out for them.

But to follow Eriks advice in the most absurd way, i think i will stop doing that. Forget others. Im not here to entertain you, im not here to save you, im not here to give you a shot at the greatest gift ever anymore. I will care about myself. That's it. i will say what i want when i want because im allowed to, using no restraint ever. I will only do my work, the rest of you can do whatever with yourselves, i don't care. If you want to have sex with someone that has AIDS and i know it, but you don't, i don't care, your problem.

Because i uphold values for myself that i wish my friends had too makes me a judge. The fact that my friends experiences has been that momentary fun does not out weigh long term happiness, though the short minded teen cannot grasp that.

Since i do not want to engage in the same thing my friends do, makes me boring according to Nicole in my class. 2 words: Screw you. If anyone hangs around with me, they know that i can joke about almost anything, that i am fun to be around, and that im far from boring. So shove whatever you think i am because i don't drink up where the sun don't shine. I don't want to drink to get drunk, i don't need booze to help me have fun. I don't need to get laid, there is more awaiting in marriage. I don't need to take drugs to experience weird colors, i see God beauty in creation every day. So im sorry to say, but you guys are pathetic if you do. You are the ones who can't have fun, that are blind. Sorry. Its true.

So for anyone of you guys reading: i don't judge purposefully. If i seem like i am, then be flattered, that means i care about you, and that i feel that we are enough of friends for you to see that you maybe aren't making a wise choice. I am looking out for you, because i care about your well being. I guess im ruining your fun. But there is more to life than fun all the time, and i might say that i have as much fun as any of you.

Like Erik when he tells me that's enough: you may not like it, but if he, a friend, is telling you that what you are doing is not all ok, maybe you should listen. He is looking out for you. I will try to not barge into anyone's business like i do, i won't try to show you that maybe what you are doing isn't so smart, because it is your choice. But i need people like Erik telling me when i screw up, and all i have to say to Erik is this: Thanks Bro.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

wow, this is soooo true.

To my sister and all my female friends, tell me that this isn't true in at least the majority of it: philosophy on girls

wow, if only for the swearing, i couldn't have put it any better myself...

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Morals to the Aid of Society 1

man, i don't even know where to start on this one... maybe i'll get around to typing something later.

Heaven forbid that you should ever have to grow up and take responsibility for your actions, and that you shouldn't be able to live life as you normally would after a certain event in your life, when said event changes or should change your life. how simple it is to have a scapegoat to never have to assume the responsibility for your actions?

thats a pre lude...

addendum: yea, so this was supposed to be about abortion, but... i think my other post is a good description for this too...

abortion will be later.
Im hungry.

Monday, May 09, 2005

Words of Wisdom from Doctor Claire....

true friends are people who know you really well, but who like you anyways...

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Creationist Rant 2

Sudden revelation: hypocrites walk the logic street!
im sick of hearing: "keep an open mind dude", or:" you're just closed minded!". Come on, you don't even know what you are saying.

Could it possibly be that by telling me to keep an open mind on a matter you are simply putting whatever responsibility you put on others to keep an open mind to shame, omitting yourself among those open minded people? Yea, that just might be it. By telling me to keep an open mind, that effectively disproves anything i have to say, since i'm a close minded religious zealot, and it keeps you from having to listen to what i say because you are so open minded you don't need another point of view.

Or is that not so? Tell me please! I'm so sick of everyone, just because i say something that has to so with a religious and moral standpoint, telling me to keep an open mind. Automatically, when you deal with a Christian person stating some views that just might be well argumented and convicting, he/she is a close minded conservative bent on harming the progress of humanity.

Just once, i would like to go into a conversation where we are all true to what we say. If you say to me to keep an open mind, you are putting the same pressure on yourself: you have to stay open minded, too. It's too easy to say to someone else to do something to keep yourself from doing that same thing.

I have already mentioned this: i am open minded. Believe it or not, i have doubts, more often than not, on what i believe. These doubts are normal for any self respecting Christian, and it shows that you do not believe what you believe purely because someone told you to. These doubts usually don't last long, because through Bible study and self examination, you see why you think that and you realize the evidence is just too overwhelming to doubt.
I find it extremely insulting when people tell me to keep an open mind on a matter where i have a strong view point, because they are doing nothing to prove me wrong, and i want to be proven wrong. No, all they are doing is avoiding the matter and labeling me a dogmatic close minded moron.

What does it mean anyways? Someone tell me. I don't know whether i have ever told anyone to keep an open mind. Remain logical, and follow the argument to the end. If there is no flaw in your logic, then the conclusion of the argument must be true. If you don't accept the truth then, then THAT is when you can say to someone to keep an open mind, and to not recoil onto what you have learned falsely. You cannot say this to someone who has yet to be shown wrong, anytime, because you are just dismissing what he has to say as unenlightened boorish stupidity, and protecting your weak intellect from any attack, since he will never change his mind anyway, right?

Also, when people tell me, you have already made up your mind, and you won't change your mind, well, that's not true. If im wrong, i change my mind, because only fools don't, and i consider myself to be more than a fool. But, and this is where you have to follow the logic: if im not wrong, then i don't change my mind. I'll let that sink in. If i have proven something wrong, or at least doubtful, then YOU should change your mind, and not dismiss me as: "well, you won't change your mind either way!". No, prove your point further, and if it's all the way logical, then you are right. If I am, then i'm right. Accept that maybe the religious zealot can be right, and not say he cannot, since he isn't scientific.

Another thing: logical fallacies. I hate those. im probably guilty of some now and then, but sometimes, man, it annoys me. When you "poison the well", for example, when you dismiss what i say because im young, i don't know everything, i haven't studied it like the scientists have, you are poisoning the well. Because im the one saying it, that makes it less true. Prove the argument wrong, then we discuss my age.
Another is ad hominem, attack the person, not the argument. It goes with poisoning the well. You can't prove me wrong, so say what i have done to a puppy, that i have sexual pleasures with other men, whatever you need to say to discredit me. This happen a lot: well, you are Christian, the Catholics have done a lot of bad stuff, therefore you are bad, i won't listen to you.
Lastly, but not really the end of fallacies, is when you turn the argument around: "well, what do YOU say on the matter?". Sorry dude, you need to prove my premise wrong, i don't need to prove myself right. Think about it.

anyways, i cannot stand hypocrisy like this, and the fact that you people need these tactics to evade an argument proves:
-that you actually don't know what you are talking about
-that you don't really know what you are believing
-that you are trying to not hear what i have to say
-and that you won't change your mind any more than you say i wouldn't, except you have been proven wrong or at least been put into serious doubt, making you a fool.

or am i too harsh?
is this just the rage i feel about being in Sweden right now?
is it the rage that i feel when i realize that no one here upholds the same values talking?

maybe. But this doesn't disprove anything i just said. i hope you noticed this.

peace dudes.

Thursday, May 05, 2005


hey all.

well, 3 days ago twas my birthday. i dunno why, i felt a little bummed out. It's like, everyone is supposed to shower you with adoration and love on your birthday right? i kinda didn't feel like that happened, i mean, i had the longest most boring day in school on monday, and it was like, i dunno, like i deserve more. haha, selfish right?
anyways, i got many wonderful gifts from the family and i would like to say thank you very much. so voilàà. my first birthday in sweden. one skateboard, a movie and mullah. pretty good i might say. but something didn't click.

whatever i guess.
peace dudes.

oh, and btw, i can fs 180 now.